Sunday, February 01, 2009
I need prayer support. Frankly speaking, I am LOST...yes, lost AGAIN...yup, lost again TODAY...
No grandma stories, straight to the point, it is about my studies again. I just don't know why God has chosen this path for my studies. My studies was great since I was small. I am always a good student before I entered UTAR. Everytime after a problem solved, God will put another problems in my studies until I cant tahan. Each time when I think God is done with my studies, God will immediately put something extra for me. I know the theories, I know I should claim the promises in bible not to worry and everything will turned out to be good but the process isn't comfortable for me.
The feeling is like walking alone in a dark small valley. Although I know God has control of everything but...I am scared. I don't understand why my campus life will be such different and special from others. Why can't I have a simple normal campus life? The studies in UTAR is always a torn in my body, like what Paul had. Everytime when I comes to studies, I think of Paul who asked God to take away the torn but God answered him in 2 Cor 12: 8-9 「And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. 」
I need prayer support to really apply this scripture into my life. I am so worry for my studies, this semester, I am joining the a new batch of students whom I never study with them before. This is already 3rd time I need to fit in another batch of juniors. Not only fit in but I need to group with people to finish assignments while they already in groups. Besides that, I need to take courses with restructure syllabus (new lecturers of course) and redo all the assignments again.
I have been praying for big pictures in my life. Why God put my studies in such a situation I need to undergo all these. I almost beh tahan already!!! Please constantly pray for me especially for my studies. I am really lost.
God Bless U n ME...
written by, Xiang2Jian4...
12:12 AM
Wednesday, January 07, 2009
hmm, I went to taiwan after christmas and I am back~
I dropped my wallet there and the trip is still nice. memorable.
After I came back, spent a few days just to reapply my IC, driving lisence and all those.
Today went back to school and discuss about my course with my course tutor.
And here is my new timetable for this coming long semester. I will be study with 4 groups of people and actually I am taking only 4 subjects. In other words, I am dealing with lots of people now...sigh..
my timetable :
Mon: 8-10, 1-2
Tues: 9-1230
Wed: 10-1, 2-4
Thurs: 8-11
Fri: 8-10
scary...i will have classes non stop for continuously 3 hours twice a week?!
sigh...just pray that I will have good classmates...I need people to go through this with me...
in Jesus's name, AMEN..
God Bless U n ME...
written by, Xiang2Jian4...
9:10 PM
Thursday, December 25, 2008
Merry Christmas, to me.
First time I have so touch by the service in Kepong. I see hope inside, and I strongly feel that I belongs here.
Glad that I am going to teach the teenagers next year. Hopefully I can settled down with them, although I am not good at kids...But since I start teaching sunday school, I really feel that God is pulling me back to Youth Fellowship, and preparing me to serve full time in the future.
Blessed me~
anyway, wish you all have a blessed christmas, and get to know the true meaning of christmas this year.
God Bless U n ME...
written by, Xiang2Jian4...
9:41 PM
Sunday, December 21, 2008
It has been one week since I sit for final. the result will be out by tomorrow I think?
This few weeks I start getting closer to MYF again...I say so because I bumped into a few activities of MYF because of sunday school teachers' meeting, and I was shocked when I had a great feeling that says I belongs here. And I hang out more often with them nowadays. And hopefully I can really go back to this place la...
I spent a lot for the preparation to taiwan...sigh...hopefully this trip will be a fruitful one...
God Bless U n ME...
written by, Xiang2Jian4...
7:55 PM
Monday, December 15, 2008
going backpack to taiwan...
26 Dec - 3 Jan...
lots of things to prepare due to lack of preparation during exam times...
hmm...going to be busy till i come back perhaps?
God Bless U n ME...
written by, Xiang2Jian4...
12:32 PM
Thursday, December 04, 2008
Dec is a month where all my money will flow to dont know where until nothing left.
For the first time in a month, I spent a few major expenses within one month. Totally break my previous record.
Bought a K800i for RM300, and Taiwan trip flight ticket cost RM1600. Going to buy a backpack and a big pouch. And going to spend about RM1300 there...
Totally PK already....
God Bless U n ME...
written by, Xiang2Jian4...
1:05 PM
Sunday, November 30, 2008
today is 29 Nov.
final on 15 Dec.
tat means i have 16 days to study for my simulation final.
can i manage to get an A for this?
pass then enough la~
phewww..
God Bless U n ME...
written by, Xiang2Jian4...
2:01 PM
Sunday, November 23, 2008
Today I keep questioning myself. What is the goal that I set for myself last year? What I want to archieve in 2008?
Last time, God told me that this will be the sabbath year for me. And I changed the blog title to "Be still" as I receive the message from God. I don't know it will turn out to be in a way such that I was suspended from school for one semester. The Cheong Keen now compared to last year, is really different.
Some say that I am growing too fast, but I just don't know should I be happy or sad for the compliment. I believe that everything happen with a purpose. I need to get to know the purpose behind all these. I need to know my priority and set my life time vision very clear.
Just I need more time to figure it out.
God Bless U n ME...
written by, Xiang2Jian4...
11:52 PM
Thursday, November 20, 2008
next week is week 7, the last week of this short semester. To be honest, I am using this short semester and next long semester to check whether I want to continue or not, since I no need to pay any of the fees and even if I withdraw, I will not get back the money.
When I flashed back the 6 weeks of my studies, I don't know if I'm capable to handle the course. I don'y know if I had change since my case happened, or this is the real me when I am serious about my studies. If this is the real me, I think I will be having a very very bad time when I am trying to finish this course and get the degree.
Having dilemma when I was trying to take the test and finish the assignments given. Although most of the students claims that they are just about my level, but as I can see from the test result, haih...
But I am really grateful for my test one result. I thought I have max 30 plus. but ended up I have 49! which is almost half~ When I first get back my paper, I was so shocked! This is call grace! You receive something that you are not deserved. But then now when I think back, I don't know if this 49 will get me through the semester final or not. Sigh...
Will be praying hard for my semester final...
God Bless U n ME...
written by, Xiang2Jian4...
9:08 PM
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
Today I just had my very first test since I resume my studies. I was so worry yesterday night. Worry what would happened if the result turns out to be something not that pleasant. Worry this worry that. Blah blah blah..
Today the university annouced that my course's structure has been changed, efficient starting next year. That means, next year I will be having some papers with the current group, and some with the batch I thought I dropped. The structure is still very very messy and I need time to sort things out.
Working on assignments now and hopefully I can make it on time.
God Bless U n ME...
written by, Xiang2Jian4...
9:10 PM
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